Something and someone made me remember what you have said to me the night we have met (no, it's not what we did and I don't have the courage to write it here Hehehe). It made me understand better what you meant "tahimik na buhay".
And I guess what I can draw out from your conclusion is this: I should take an initiative to make my life less cluttered and chaotic. Altough majority of this will based from my decisions and to some extent from the decision of others. I guess it's time to sort out which bridge to cross and burn down.
However, as contradicting as I can ever be. Some part of me would like to make a litte note to the conclusion above. That what ever it, it doesn't hinder me from creating new bridges to replace the one burned down already ☺